Shhhecret Crush <3
I was overdosing on Vitamin A's from staring at her... Overdosing on vitamin A's because she was very good for my eyes. I seen a hot dame, with long black hair, and a glass coca cola... type figure. I would feel like fainting every time I see her pass by. It was a "crush." The reason behind the word,"crush"(i think) is because when you hold in your feelings, it heavily crushes you painfully inside. I decided to put my shy, nervousness side aside and gathered all my courage just to be able to walk up and talk to her. I felt confident because I had a guitar at the time and knew that my fluent English speaking abilities would be a green mushroom (1up). We had a short conversation going on because she was already on her way to her classroom. I asked her if I can have her number and maybe we can be friends and start mating textually(didn't say it like that, but become text mates) anyways so she gave me her number (w00t!)
When I got home, I eagerly texted her "Hi, how you doin?" Anxious to get a response back, I kept checking back at my phone while I was doing my homework. No response... Texted her back hours later... No response... Texted "Gnite..." No response... The next time I saw her again, I went up to her baffled in front of all her friends and said,"You must've dialed down your number wrong because I didn't get any text back from you..."
"Oh yea, I don't use that number anymore..."sounding very sincere as her friends watched and giggled inconspicuously.
I created that grind time money mentality. Mind on my Money, Money on my Mind. Cash Rules Everything Around Me, C.R.E.A.M. get the money. M-O-B Money Over Babes... It was hard to maintain that mentality especially when the people I hung out with the most always brought dates. I was always the 3rd or even the 5th wheel... Lucky & Kim, Twin & Yvonne
One night, I jokingly prayed,"God, can you help me get a girlfriend haha..."
but..."Be careful what you wish for, it might just come true"(to be continued...)
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"Oh yea, I don't use that number anymore..."sounding very sincere as her friends watched and giggled inconspicuously.
So I gave her my phone and she dialed it in. Excited and full of joy, I texted her when I got home...4 hours later...No response..."OHHH! I get it now :D HAHA! Owww...D;"
It takes a lot for shy people to confront a crush because of their self-consciousness, otherwise, we wouldn't be shy and wouldn't be afraid to try, so it scars whenever we get denied. Left the game cuz i got cut! Like cardiac surgery, deep!
I created that grind time money mentality. Mind on my Money, Money on my Mind. Cash Rules Everything Around Me, C.R.E.A.M. get the money. M-O-B Money Over Babes... It was hard to maintain that mentality especially when the people I hung out with the most always brought dates. I was always the 3rd or even the 5th wheel... Lucky & Kim, Twin & Yvonne
And He did... He answered my prayers with abundance and gave me 7... God is good.
but..."Be careful what you wish for, it might just come true"(to be continued...)
