Sometimes love just aint enough...
Single again
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| 5 months later |
What was once our "Laugh Story" or Taylor Swift's beautiful "Love Story"unfortunately became Lady Gaga's "Bad Romance." Not to say the relationship was a joke.
We broke up again and now it's for good(well... Heaven only knows if it is done forever). When she broke up with me, it made me think about our differences. No matter how hard I tried to sway ourselves to be on the same track, opposites just don't attract . We had really fun conversations, and good laughs together, and I really enjoyed being with her, but I wanted the relationship to be more exciting by trying to gain more common interest, other then just joking around, by asking her if she wanted try these activities like photography, poetry, jogging, bowling, etc, but she thought it was too tiring and didn't try to give any effort on doing so. She wanted me to support her and join her club by going to a meeting, which I did in behalf of her favor, but left me waiting at a certain spot for a long period of time, waiting for her, totally oblivious because she was being so ambiguous about her whereabouts, and she ended up texting me to just leave and go home after thirty minutes of waiting. Angry, I promised myself to stop doing her favors... well, i didn't stop doing favors for her but i stopped going to the meetings. She really loves doing these school club activities to the point of soreness, pain, stress and aches all over her body. I helped out and I sorta enjoyed it but I wanted her/us to quit. We had major differences in hobbies that I wished we could've clicked with.
We broke up again and now it's for good(well... Heaven only knows if it is done forever). When she broke up with me, it made me think about our differences. No matter how hard I tried to sway ourselves to be on the same track, opposites just don't attract . We had really fun conversations, and good laughs together, and I really enjoyed being with her, but I wanted the relationship to be more exciting by trying to gain more common interest, other then just joking around, by asking her if she wanted try these activities like photography, poetry, jogging, bowling, etc, but she thought it was too tiring and didn't try to give any effort on doing so. She wanted me to support her and join her club by going to a meeting, which I did in behalf of her favor, but left me waiting at a certain spot for a long period of time, waiting for her, totally oblivious because she was being so ambiguous about her whereabouts, and she ended up texting me to just leave and go home after thirty minutes of waiting. Angry, I promised myself to stop doing her favors... well, i didn't stop doing favors for her but i stopped going to the meetings. She really loves doing these school club activities to the point of soreness, pain, stress and aches all over her body. I helped out and I sorta enjoyed it but I wanted her/us to quit. We had major differences in hobbies that I wished we could've clicked with.
"its a lie to say you've let go of the past... Really, it is... nobody lets go of memories, each tear is an unforgettable memory, each smile is an undeniable mark, each heartbreak is an uneraseable scar. Because actually, there's no such thing as forgetting."
I am in my deepest thoughts when im alone... and these thoughts were starting to scare me. Thoughts keep coming back about "us" getting back, my "brothers" are "leaving me", thoughts of being alone, painfully devours the joy in thy unseen soul. But thy visible friend, thy shadow, remains with me, dark and void.(lol)
I cant fight what's on my mind, so I have to run. I don't want to say I'm running away from my problems, but I literally am and its working. Freaky thoughts wear off as soon as I start running, but come back once the running ceases... It's back to reality which is the creepy fantasy my mind sees. Am I suppose to run forever? Will that make my thoughts go away?...another Superwoman? Will she save me from my own mind?
"I cant fight it!"
We've broken up for a while now and people started catching on... I'm digging the attention, once again. Girls are back to flirting with me, making themselves available, and some are just loud and forceful about wanting me to be their boyfriend... "help...?"
2 girls sitting in front of me talking about my relationship status...
girl 1: na buwag na sila... (They broke up...)girl 2: sooya... gwapo siya, no? (Too bad... He's handsome, right?)
girl 1: nods, smiles and thumbs up.
(you can call me a "feeler", but I really don't think its all in my head. Request if you want to hear more even pick up lines from crushers.)
Yikes! Yellow light means "CAUTION!"
